Poem: When You're Gone

When You're Gone

I try not to worry,

You are on your journey,

I am on mine,

But two weeks without you,

And I’m back to the moment when I needed you,

And you needed me to stand up,

Back to our last hug,

The painless days are a wonder,

I see you through the window,

Teaching me to dress, walk, how to wear my purse securely,

Words never needed,

Clicked moments of clarity,

I’ll keep your voice forever in my mind,

Telling me you love me,

Whispered though the memories that still sting and twist,

I’ll read your words,

Over and over,

Meant for me,

My lifeline,

I hope you know how much you mean to me,

How much I’ll love you, forever.

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